Today I have brought the anixety nearly, it's have been a burden on my shoulders. I got anixety because that i was really worried... my best friend and sister feels really awful and i can't help her to get better. She mean more then anything in this destroyed world, she have saved my life more then once... and I can lose her...i can't. I know that i sounds really selfish but it's true, i can't live with the pain of losing her. And it's why i have been so full of anixety, sad and frustrated because i can't find any solution to her problems. It's drives me mad and i can say that i have almost been able to start to cry many times in the public. So  i've been wearing this fake smile to hide that i just wanna cry my eyes out and when i came home i just took it of. So i have been crying so much that my eyes is red and swollen. But it's okay... it's friday yey, just two days left to monday again. yeah i'm so posetive i know.